Its two years since I landed in chennai and life aint easy when I stepped in Chennai on December 2005. Chennai was very new to me and for a person like me who hail from other part of tamil nadu it is always a city that is scarry. All I know untill December 2005 is to study and be good at academics (though I was a part of extra-curricular activities in my shcool days there were not a single extra-curricular programme in my college)I never so much concentrated on my communication skills and realised how huge difference it can make in the career of a person. I felt like I am nothing before the people I met in Chennai until I talk to them. Being optimistic to the core I pushed away the negative thoughts that came my away and started concentrating on bettering my skills to make my seat in this competetive city. Hardwork and knowledge is welcomed everywhere and I got the opportunity to be a part of a law firm. I was groomed and I could see my successful career shaping up in this organization. Hardwork always pays and it paid me well. In life we may have a starting trouble and at that time we need to push ourself and strive hard so that we can see our better tommorrow. On my personal front I had many problems and it all only helped me to become mentally strong and handle situation in a light hearted mannner. This city has taught me the wonderful lessons of my life. It has given me good friends and moulded me to face the challenges in life very boldly. Many of us fail to see that we are in a much much better postion than others but we least think about it and often compare our problems with others and sit mourning that we have the biggest problem on earth. The big message that I got here is Take life as it comes. I always did it and hope will be doing it in future too.

This has been haunting me for a long time and finally I have decided to try it. When I got enrolled in the Bar council I was keen in practising at the courts(left with no other options) though my father's and grand father's dream is to pursue UPSC and to see me as an IAS or IFS or so. But circumstances made me to practice at court and then join the law firm and pursue my career as an immigration attorney. US immigration laws are very tough and I had to put all my efforts to study it apart from improvising my communication skill which is pivotal in my role as attorney. Handling people was really tough in the beginning. After putting my efforts in 2 years of US immigration practice the long desired dream which was sleeping underneath my mind peeped up after the pinprick of my uncle who has started dreaming to make me an UPSC aspirant. This isnt really easy. Finally I made my mind to try my erstwhile dream - civil services examination. Friends were against me since they are of the opinion that the total services are corrupt and I could not do much by becoming part of it. Rather they think that I can earn more in my current way and could flow those funds for the development . My opinion was that by being part of the civil service department I can do much better than what I can do now.I will be a part of the policy making and implementing body. Was not sure until a month ago but now the argument is settled down and I have planned to go ahead. As they say that you will worry in future for not doing what you desired than for what you did I am going ahead to give an attempt and try my luck in the civil services examination.

Its almost 3 months from my last post and things have changed drastically in my life. I was shattered by the demise of my grand father but still then I was prepared for this. Indeed after the death of my father in 2004 I am very much prepared to accept things as it comes. The lacunae left by my grand father cannot be filed by anone. He was my mentor, guide and on whom I can rely when life tends me to take important decisions. End of 2007 has made me to accept new challenges and responsibilities. It has made me to think more practical and view life closely. Amidst the bad happenings there are good things that made me smile. Its almost 3 years I spent a month at a stretch with my mom and now I have the opportunity to be with her. My close friend is on her family way after 5 years of marital life. I got a hike- thats the reason for my broad smile anyway. I started traveling which was my long time wish. My first trip was to thirupathi and thiruchanur with my mom. It was raining cats and dogs in Chennai and it was the same in thirupathi too. All were awe-struck when I returned from thirupathi with a tonsured head.

2007 had many twists and turns in my life and it helped me to have a positive approach in my life and to help as many people I can. Hope 2008 will help me grow mentally strong and to be a good human being.

May 2008 bring peace in the world and prosperity in the life of underpreviliged.

'I send Myself forth, to protect the good and to destroy the evil ones. And to establish righteousness, I incarnate Myself age after age'.

The future generations will really wonder that a man with such noble qualities existed in this world.

Two news took over my thoughts yesterday and they are
1. http://www.ibnlive.com/news/10yrold-mumbai-girl-fights-eveteasers-critical/45465-3.html
2.http://www.ibnlive.com/news/ysr-insults-naidus-lineage-in-full-public-view/45488-3.html

The first incident is a 10 year girl being molested in Mumbai and the second one is the CM of Andhra Pradesh making personal comments about the former CM in the house in full public view.

This incident will be a nightmare for her till her death. Her cry shows her physical pain and mental agony. I am really worried about the bad impact this will have on her future. It will take a long time for her to come out of this. There are lot of incidents happening like this in our country and many of them are unnoticed. I do not know what pleasure guys get in molesting girls. I pray God that she should get the strength to come out from this.

The second incident shows that when a person cannot think logically to defend his opponent then they start making personal comments. The mentality of the people will remain the same inspite of their levels in the society. If we hate someone to the maximum extent we find some pleasure by abusing them. This scenario is everywhere but a man in a high decorum should be careful in what he speaks and what he does before the public. I could only say that he has defamed himself.

Think about it..


I have no clue When was the last time I used it...

DISCLAIMER:

The author hereby declares that she is not liable if the readers bang their head and suffer with any side effects after reading this . If anything worse happens to those who read this it is purely coincidental .

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Today everything comes with a tag, disclaimer or warning attached.

We watch shows, serial, movies or any advertisements and it starts with a disclaimer.

'This story(movie, play) and the characters in this story(serial, movie) doesnt resemble any one living or dead. If it is any way related to any one living or dead it is purely coincidental'

[OR]

'This stunt is performed by a trained expert. Do not try it at home.'

[OR]

'Children should not try this on their own. They should do it only with adult guidance'

When we consume certain goods we see warnings like:

'Cigarette smoking is injurious to health' (I could not find anything better than this :-)


[OR]

'Drinking is not good for health' ( Or Kudi kudiyai kedukum )

These are statutory warnings and it paves the way for them to escape legally when they are asked upon. So what will happen in future if the current scenario continues and reaches its extreme level.


1. Disclaimer by God when a child is born-
Child will be born with a tag attached:
'You are giving birth to this child at your own risk. Later on you should not complain on me(though it is your fault) that why God has given me such a useless child'

2. In restaurant -
'You are eating at your own risk. If you find any lizard, cockrach or any other things living or dead in any item which we serve it is purely coincidental and it is not our fault. '

3. In a hotel-
'You are staying at your own risk. If the building collapses or the waiter slaps it is purely coincidental and the hotel authorities are not responsible for it. You should deal with them individually'

4. In office-
Employer disclaimer:
'You are working at your own risk. You hereby agree that you will work as long as the employer permits and you accept to get whatever he pays.'

Employees disclaimer:
'You are employing me at your own risk. If I run away with all the things in the office or If I misappropriate the funds , it is purely coincidental and I am not liable for it'


5. In temple-
Disclaimer by God:
'You are worshipping at your own risk. If I do not fulfill your wishes or if it goes otherwise its is purely coincidental'

6.In school-
Teacher's disclaimer:
'You are learning at your own risk. If you are enlightened then we are responsible for it and your ignorance increases then it is purely coincidental'

Students disclaimer:
'You are teaching us at your own risk. If we break your head through duster it is purely coincidental'.

7. In aeroplane-
'You are travelling at your own risk. If the plane crashes then it is purely coincidental and we wish you happy journey next time'

8. In Banks-
'You are depositing at your own risk. If we run away with all the money then it is purely coincidental'


The list will go on and on . And now since we have come to the end I would like to say..

'YOU READ THE ABOVE AT YOUR OWN RISK!!!!!!!! AND IF YOU BANG YOUR HEAD NOW FOR READING THIS I AM NOT RESPONSIBLE'

:-)

Many people have asked me the following questions and when they hear my response they become nuts and feel like bashing me.

:-)

Question: Hey D.....What kind of movies you like?? How often do you go to theatres to watch movies?

Me: I like all . I do not have a specific choice. Hmm..Well I never go to theatres to watch movies. As far as I know I have never craved to watch any movies in theatres. If at all anyone compels(precisely threatens) me to come with them, then after a long hesitation I accompany them. I have watched only 9 films in theatres in my 25 years of lifespan. Majority of them were english films which I watched with my dad. My highest record is in the year 2006 when I watched three films in a day in Sathyam because of my friend Nithya (She is a movie freak).

Question: What will you do if you really like to watch a film. Would you try to watch??

Me: Yes. Of course. I will watch it when they telecast it in television. :-)

Question: WHAT????(Dumb) Ok. Which hero, heroine you like very much?

Me: I love all . Hate none. I dnt have a specific liking on anyone. If any of them acts very well then I never hesitate to compliment them.

Finally they end up saying, 'You are really weird and stoic. You dnt watch movies. You are not a music freak. I do not know what else you do in your life. Weird soul...hush hush'.

Does this means I am abnormal???!!

Nijangal ennai

atchuruthuvadillai.

Kanavugal ena

kadalipadillai.

Naan nesipadu

nigalgalathai mattumey.

Naan yosipadu

edirgaalam mattumey.

Aam..!!

Naan vithiyasamanaval..

Tholviyai

rasipaval naan.

Vilum adigal

anubavamaga maatruvadaal

enaku tholvi pidikum.

Naan

meendum

jeyipen enbadaal....

enaku tholvi pidikum!!!

Un kaneer

En kangalil...

En punnagai

Un udadugalil..

Poi vaa ...anbey..

Idam maari poginrom

Idayangalai

maatri kollamal.....

Enna unaku eludi kodupadu...

Ennayey

eludi

kodutha piragu...

Ninaivu parisu edarku?

Un ninaivey

parisu enaku.

Naam pesi kollamal irunda anda naatkal

nammai patri

pesikolgirnrana

ippodu...

Pookal paripadarkalla

enru punnagaipavaley

purindu kol

idayangalum eripdadarkalla!

Magilchiyana tharunangalil

thaniyey sirithu kol!

Sogam varumbodu

mattum

solli anupu!

Solla kuda thevaillai..

Sollamaley varuven thol kodupadarku.

Thungi kondirunda

kadal

vilithelumbodu

vidaiperumvelai..!!

Isn't it strange how a 20 rupee note seems like such a large amount when you give for alms but such a small amount when you go shopping?

Isn't it strange how 2 hours seem so long when you're talking to your parents, and how short they seem when you're with your lover?

Isn't it strange that you can't find a word to say to your parents, but you have no trouble thinking what to talk about with your lover?

Isn't it strange how everyone wants a place in heaven, but they don't want to believe, do, or say anything to get there?


Isn't it strange how we call and talk to friends and send jokes in e-mails and they are forwarded right away, but when we want to talk or write a letter to our parents, we think about it twice.

Isn't it strange when we deceive others we always have a reason for it and when others deceive us we try cursing them for it.


Isn't it strange when we want others to hear our words and we never try to lend an ear to what they say.


Isn't it strange we always want others to love us and we never try to show the least care towards them.

Dnt know whether this can be called as a true love or not. She sticked to the decision she made and thats what makes me to admire her. We see people change their minds in seconds. In one way she resembles me. Whenever I need to take a decision on anything I used to be like a cat on the wall but once I make the decision I will stick to it not matter whatever may befall. I pray that their relationship should be smooth always.

A group of children were playing near two railway tracks, one still in use while the other disused. Only one child played on the disused track, the rest on the operational track.
The train is coming, and you are just beside the track interchange. You can make the train change its course to the disused track and save most of the kids. However, that would also mean the lone child playing by the disused track would be sacrificed. Or would you rather let the train go its way?
Let's take a pause to think what kind of decision we could make................
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Most people might choose to divert the course of the train, and sacrifice only one child. You might think the same way, I guess. Exactly, I thought the same way initially because to save most of the children at the expense of only one child was rational decision most people would make, morally and emotionally. But, have you ever thought that the child choosing to play on the disused track had in fact made the right decision to play at a safe place?
Nevertheless, he had to be sacrificed because of his ignorant friends who chose to play where the danger was. This kind of dilemma happens around us everyday. In the office, community, in politics and especially in a democratic society, the minority is often sacrificed for the interest of the majority, no matter how foolish or ignorant the majority are, and how farsighted and knowledgeable the minority are. The child who chose not to play with the rest on the operational track was sidelined. And in the case he was sacrificed, no one would shed a tear for him.
The great critic Leo Velski Julian who told the story said he would not try to change the course of the train because he believed that the kids playing on the operational track should have known very well that track was still in use, and that they should have run away if they heard the train's sirens. If the train was diverted, that lone child would definitely die because he never thought the train could come over to that track! Moreover, that track was not in use probably because it was not safe. If the train was diverted to the track, we could put the lives of all passengers on board at stake! And in your attempt to save a few kids by sacrificing one child, you might end up sacrificing hundreds of people to save these few kids.
While we are all aware that life is full of tough decisions that need to be made, we may not realize that hasty decisions may not always be the right one.

"Remember that what's right isn't always popular... and what's popular isn't always right.

Too often we don't realize
What we have until it's gone.
Too often we wait too late to say
"I'm sorry - I was wrong."

Sometimes it seems we hurt the ones
We hold dearest to our hearts.
And we allow foolish things
To tear our lives apart.

Far too many times we let
Unimportant things into our minds.
And then it's usually too late
To see what made us blind.


o be sure that you let people know
How much they mean to you.
Take that time to say the words
Before your time is through.

Be sure that you appreciate
Everything you've got.
And be thankful for the little things in life...that mean a lot.

Though it has been three years since you passed away I still feel that you are somewhere around me.


Nature has proved it again that 'DEATH IS IMMORTAL'.

1. At the movies: When you meet acquaintances/friends...
Stupid Question:-
Hey, what are you doing here?
Answer:-
Dont u know, I sell tickets in black over here..

2. In the bus: A heavy lady wearing pointed high-heeled shoes steps on your feet...
Stupid Question:-
Sorry, did that hurt?
Answer:-
No, not at all, I'm on local anesthesia.....why don't you try again.

3. At a funeral: One of the teary-eyed people ask...
Stupid Question:-
Why, why him, of all people.
Answer:-
Why? Would it rather have been you?

4. At a restaurant: When you ask the waiter
Stupid Question:-
Is ! the "Butter Paneer Masala" dish good??
Answer:-
No, its terrible and made of adulterated cement. We occassionaly also spit in it.

5. At a family get-together: When some distant aunt meets you after years...
Stupid Question:-
Munna, Chickoo, you've become so big.
Answer:-
Well you haven't particularly shrunk yourself.

6. When a friend announces her wedding, and you ask...
Stupid Question:-
Is the guy you're marrying good?
Answer:-
No,he's a miserable wife-beating , insensitive lout...it's just the money.

7. When you get woken up at midnight by a phone call...
Stupid Question:-
Sorry. were you sleeping?
Answer:-
No. I was doing research on whether the Zulu tribes in Africa marry or not. You thought I was sleeping....you dumb witted moron.

8. When you see a friend/colleague with evidently shorter hair...
Stupid Question:-
Hey have you had a haircut?
Answer:-
No, its autumn and I'm shedding......

9. At the dentist when he's sticking pointed objects in your mouth...
Stupid Question:-
Tell me if it hurts?
Answer:-
No it wont. It will just bleed.

10. You are smoking a cigarette and a cute woman asks...
Stupid Question:-
Oh, so you smoke.
Answer:-
Gosh, its a miracle .......it was a piece of chalk and now it's in flames!!!

I met money and said ' You are just a piece of paper'

Money smiled and said 'Of course I am. But I havn't seen a dustbin for me yet!'

Since these days I spend a lot with myself and loneliness hits me hard I love these lines in the voice of Amitab Bachan.

mein aur meri tanhayi
aksar yeh baatein karte hai
tum hoti to kaisa hota
tum yeh kehti tum woh kehti
tum is baat pe hairan hoti
tum us baat pe kitni hasti
tum hoti to aisa hota
tum hoti to waisa hota
mein aur meri tanhaye aksar baatein karte hai....

yeh raat hai ya tumhari zulfe khuli hui hai
hai chandni ya tumhari nazaro se meri raatein dhuli hui hi
ayeh chaand ha ya tumhara kangansitare hai ya tumhara aanchal
hawa ka jhoka hai ya tumhare badan ki khushbu
yeh pattion ki hai sarsarahat ya tumne chupke se kuch kaha hai
yeh sochta hoon mein kabse gumsum
ki jabki mujhko bhi yeh khabar hai tum nahi ho kahi nahi ho
magar yeh dil hai ki keh raha hai tum yahi ho yahi kahi ho
majboor yeh haalat idhar bhi hai udhar bhi
tanhayi ki ek raat idhar bhi hai udhar bhi
kehne ko bahot kuch hai magar kisse kahe hum
kab tak yu hi khamosh rahe aur sahe hum
dil kehta hai duniya ki har ek rasm utha de
deewar jo hum dono mein hai aaj gira de
kyon dil mein sulaghte rahe logo ko bata de
haan humko mohabbar hai mohabbbat hai mohabbat
ab dil mein yahi baat idhar bhi hai udhar bhi

I was startled to watch Maywati giving interview that her property worth 51 crores is acquired from the money donated by the members of her party that too in the form of affidavits worth 5, 10 and 20 Rupees. It is disgusting to see women equally joining hands with men in corruption business. Now she has made me greedy that I should start a political party and here I go ; The party name is Unmayana Magalir Munetra Kalagam (yenna mathadellam poli, pithalai) :-) and I should start uplifting all womens in the society. To start with People please uplift me by sending me affidavit for Rs. 50, 100, 500, 1000 or whatever value and send it to my address. I will definitely rememeber you all irrespective of the amount you donate me and will mention all of your name during my interview with all popular T.V.Channels.

• My rolde models: Laloo the Bihari and Maya the mother.
• My aim: To uplift the womens and families in the society.(To start with let me uplift myself and my family)
• The flag of the party: Has not yet finalised
• Members of the party- All are welcome. Right now I am the president, Vice president, etc. People who become members of my party will be given post according to their facevalue.(Money value)
• Rules, regulations and motto of the party- Fresh ideas are welcome. As far now nothing is finalised.
• Rest of the things will be finalised in the next meeting.

Bharath Matha ki Jai!!!

Vande Mataram!!!

Television came to our home when I was in 5th standard and my craze knew no bound at that time. There were stricts rules and restrictions from my mother to watch the programmes as she is very much concerned about our studies and the electricity bills. The Doordarshan era I am speaking about is from the year 1992 to 1998. I am going to list the programmes I watched during those years and which is still afresh at the base of my heart.

• Vande mataram which they telecast it on morning and the DD music. (Its still amazing)
• Songs like Miley sur mera tumhaara, School chaley hum, etc.
• The Ramanyana
• The Mahabaratha
• Chandrakantha
• The reporter
• He-man
• Potlibaba
• Shanthi
• Suraag
• Dada Dadi ki Kahani
• Vikram aur vetal
• Ghutan
• Mitti ke Rang
• Alice in wonderland
• The Jungle Book - Mogli
• Alif Laila
• Phateechar
• Tehkikaat
• Amaravathi ki kathayen
• Mrignayanee
• Mulla Nasruddin
• Circus
• Chitrahaar
• Turning point(Its still telecasted I think)
• Dekh bhai Dekh
• Samundar
• Chanakya
• Malgudi Days
• Byomkesh Bakshi(Dnt know the programme and so I have mentioned the character name)
• The discovery of India
• Swabhimaan
• Rangoli and Oliyum oliyum.
• Viludugal
• Udal porul aavi-aaaaaaaaaanandhi
• The street hawk
• The sword of Tippu Sultan
• Surabhi
• Vayalum Vaalvum (I could not miss this :-)
• Edhiroli.(Its still there but the charm is missing)
• Some Japanese serial dubbed in Hindi - I dnt remember its name
• All weekly tamil and hindi cinemas. Cinemas of all Indian lanaguages which they used to telecast on Sundays in alphabetical order.
• One hour tamil dramas telecasted on every fridays.

I might have missed out some other intersting programmes in tamil and hindi. Today I hardly watch DD whereas my Grandpa still rely on DD for the news. We have hundreds of channels today and it is sad to see that DD lost its charm but has retained its quality still.

1. Why are they called 'Hot Dogs' when they are not even dog meat?
2. Why is it called MENstruation?
3. Why is there gays when god created Adam and Eve, not Adam and Steve!
4. How can you not like the past but like the future and present when they both will eventually become the past?
5. If God created all man, how did he get here?
6. IF driving and drinking is against the law, why do all the bars have parking lots?
7. After you take a bath you're clean but wet, so u dry yourself with a towel. Why do you have to wash the towel? Isn't it clean?
8. After going to the toilet you turn the tap on and wash your hands. But what's the point when you just have to touch the tap you've put germs on again to turn it off?
9. Why do they call it a building if its already built?
10. Why do they call it toothpaste, do they expect you to glue you teeth together?
11. If someone is sent to prison he/she becomes a prisoner, but does someone sent to jail become a jailor?
12. What is the speed of dark?
13. If 24 hr. stores are open al the time, why are locks on the doors?
14. Did Adam and Eve have navels?
15. What do you say if you're talking to God, and he sneezes?
16. When I erase a word with a pencil, where does it go?
17. When they first invented the clock, how did they know what time it was to set it to?
18. Why do they make cars go so fast its illegal?
19. Why do you feet smell and your nose runs
20. Why doesn't glue stick to the inside of the bottle?

School days and school friends are always worth remembering. The golden period of my school days is from 9th to 12th. I had wonderful friends and this post is to relish the tussles that happened between my friends and me. As you know we like somebody without knowing the reason for it, I liked Beanu(ponnudaan he he) very much when I was in 9th. We had a very huge friends list and so tussles are very common when we give importance to one and the other gets annoyed or angry for it. In 10th I liked my other friend B very much and this again envied by my other friend Jo and she went to the extent of committing suicide which worried B very much and she stopped talking to me. Then they all moved to different schools and I continued in the same school but still then used to receive many letters from JO [in many letters where she used to accuse that she has got a new friend who is taking good care of her and not breaching her trust like me :-( ] Sadly though I had a big friends list , I had no friends close to my heart when I was in 11th and 12th. I like GS very much at that time and this time she is guarded by her friend and she afraids to talk to me before her. The wonderful thing is I got so many friends in my school days and I am still in touch with few of them. I sometimes feel that we fail to look upon people who likes or loves us very much. In my case whenever I feel to find some way to be together with friends whom I like very much I will be cornered by someone who likes me very much and that will end up in an embarassed situation. It kind of continued even in my college days and I wonder whether it happened only to me or to others too in their life.

I am dedicating this post to all my friends in my life. Though I would have been tough with them at times I am sure they must still love me as I am and they will be there for me forever.

Today I went to office without taking my mobile and what I thought was I will be missing my tiny rectangular sweetie (my habit is to keep it in silent mode in vibration when I am in office) but where it happened otherwise. I didnt miss my mobile as I used to miss in my early days (Familiarity breeds contempt?????). I felt kind of relieved and I was not bothered as such since my family knows my office number and they could still reach me even If I am not picking up the call in my mobile. I never thought I could survive a day without it. :-).

My sweeto has kind of made me her(or should I say his??) dumbo servant and finally I got the guts(he he) to be away from it. When she/he (he he he???) is with me she/he kind of made me to look at her /him once in five minutes. And now the craze has gone from my mind and I am planning to follow it atleast 7 days in a week :-)

Even if my mobile doesnt bug me (err..that will never happen) there is something that will replace it and it is my office phone and I could not throw it out even if it disturbs me(Indeed I am paid for being disturbed by it he he he) . Even If I get the courage to throw it, my company will throw me out!!!

You are addicted to your cell phone if you have the following symptoms:

1.Do parts of your body tingle when you get free cell phone minutes?
2. Does raising your children interfere with programming your speed dial?
3. Do you have long-distance conversations while sitting on the toilet in a public restroom?
4. Does the term fashion statement mean to you matching your outfit with your cell phone carrying case?
5. When getting into a car accident, is your first response "Can you hold on a moment, I’m hemorrhaging?"
6. Does the sound of static trigger dark memories of ill-fated connections?
7. Do you use the menu light as your night light?
8. Does it take you an hour on a regular phone to get the same feeling of a five-minute cellular call?
9. When receiving a phone call, do you ever ask the film projectionist to lower the volume of the movie

A joke to ponder:

Leaving Chennai for Bangalore, I decide to make a stop at one of those rest areas on the side of the road. I go in the washroom. The first stall was taken so I went in the second stall. I just sat down when I hear a voice from the next stall...
- "Hi there, how is it going?"
Okay, I am not the type to strike conversations with strangers in washrooms on the side of the road. I didn't know what to say so finally I say:
- "Not bad..."
Then the voice says:
- "So, what are you doing?"
I am starting to find that Bangalore..."
Then I hear the person say all flustered:
- "Look I'll call you back, every time I ask you a question this idiot in the next stall keeps answering me."

'Veedu, nilam, panam, nagai -
edu inga iruku vittu selvadarku', pulambugiraal manaivi.
Paithiakari avalukenna terium
naan en kulandaigaluku kodukapovadu vaalvadarkaana nambikayayum
poraduvadarkaana thunivayum!!!

Mugamudiyil maraindu kondirukiradu enadu mugam.
Sirika nenaitha nerathil aludum,
ala vendia nerathil sirithum
ellamumai vesham podugiradu inda mugam.
Edu un unmayana mugamenru kelviku badilai
mounathaye thanden palaruku.
Ulgamey arium enadu unmayana mugathai
Enadu maranathil...

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Narai vilundu , thol surungi

maranam nerunga inum irukiradu sila nimidam.

vaalnda vaalkayil eduvum mitchamillai nenaipadarku.

Petrorukaga sila varudam;

Kanavarukaga pala varudam;

Petra kulaindaikaga en kadasi nimidamum kalinda piragu

unarnden naan vaalavey illai enadu vaalkayai enru!!!

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Some of the tamil kavithai which I enjoyed reading in my school days written by Kalyanji.
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Therindu kollungal
Ningal Unguludayadu
ena eludum kavidaiku
munbey varigal irundana.
Neengal amilgira aaru
yerkanavey oodikondirukiradu.
Ningal paarkria suriyan
paartirukiradu ennatravargalai.
Ungaludaya sapaatu thattil
irukira parukaigalil
netrin etchil.
Ungaluku pinnalum
vara irukiraargal
neraya pergal
adithal thiruthal atru.
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Unnudaya kaigal daaney ;
veru yaarudaya kaigalai pol
paarkiriye - enraan.
Ennudaya kaigalaidaan
very yarudaya kaigalai pol
paarkiren.
Ennudayadai
ennudayadaaga paarpadil
enna irukiradu?

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'Pesum kel en kili 'enraan
goondai kaati.
Vaal illai.
Veesi paratka siragillai.
Vaanam kaipada valiillai.
'Paar paar ippodu pesum' ena
meendum meendum avan solla
'Paravai enraal parapadu' enum
'Paadam mudalil padi' enren.

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I am into reading Hindi and Tamil poems these days. Some poems by Mehdi Hazan which I remember.

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zindagi meiN to sabhi pyaar kiya karte haiN

main to mar ke bhi meri jaan tuJhe chahoonga

tu mila hai to ehsaas hua hai muJhko

ye meri umR mohabbat ke liye thoDi hai

ik zara saagame daura ka bhi haq hai jispar

maine wo saaNs bhi tere liye rakh choDi hai

tuJhpe ho jaaoonga qurbaan tuJhe chaoonga

main to mar ke bhi meri jaan tuJhe chahoonga

apne jazbaat meiN nagmaat rachaane ke liye

maine dhaDkan ki tarah dil meiN basaya hai tuJhe

main tasavoor bhi judaai ka bhala kaise karooN

maine kimsat ki lakiroN se churaaya hai tuJhe

pyaar ka ban ke nigehbaan tuJhe chahoonga

main to mar ke bhi meri jaan tuJhe chahoonga

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tere bheege badan ki khooshboo se

lehre bhi huyee mastaani si

teri zulf ko chookar aaj huyee

khaamosh hawa diwaani si

ye roop ka kundan dehka hua

ye zism ka chandan mehka hua

ilzaam na dena fir muJhko

ho jaaye agar naadani si

bikhra hua kaajal aankhoN meiN

toofaan ki halchal saansoN meiN

ye narM laboN ki khamoshi

palko meiN chupi hairaani si

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pyaar bhare do sharmile nain

jinse mila mere dil ko chain

koi jaane na kyoon muJh se sharmaaye

kaise muJhe tadpaaye

dil ye kahe geet main tere gaaooN

tu hi sune aur main gaata jaaooN

tu jo rahe saath mere

duniya ko thukraaooN tera dil behlaaoon

dar hai muJhe tuJh se bichad na jaaooN

kho ke tuJhe milne ki raah na paaooN

aisa na ho jab bhi tera naam laboN par laaooN

main aansoo ban jaaooN

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muJhe tum nazar se gira to rahe ho

muJhe tum kabhi bhi bhula na sakoge

na jaane muJhe kyoon yakiN ho chala hai

mere pyaar ko tum mitaa na sakoge

meri yaad hogi jidhar jaaoge tum

kabhi nagma banke kabhi banke aansoo

kabhi nagma banke kabhi banke aansoo

tadapta muJhe har taraf paaoge tum

shama jo jalaayi hai meri wafa ne

bujhaana bhi chaaho bujha na sakoge

kabhi naam baatoN meiN aaya jo mera

to bechain ho hoke dil thaam loge

to bechain ho hoke dil thaam loge

nigahon mein chaayega gham ka andhera

kisi ne jo poocha sabab-a-subooN ka

bataana bhi chaaho bata na sakoge

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Beware lovers that you will be having oppostion for your love not only from your parents, relatives or the moral police but from whole India or the whole world. This statement is in result of the live program which I watched in Aaj Tak channel last week. The whole debate was revolving around a young woman who got married but could not forget the guy whom she loved. Now her in-laws and her husband are taking steps to unite her with her lover. She is not ready to go to her mother's house inspite of repeated request from her brother to come and visit the family once. The thing that annoyed me much was that a sms poll was conducted that whether she need to marry her lover or to live with her husband. The conversation between her and her brother was telecasted live on air and the anchor was telling her that the people's choice which reflected in the sms polls was that she should live with her husband. Huh!!! Who are they (we) to decide with whom she has to live. I do not know how and why did she accepted the proposal of Aaj tak channel to talk about her and telecast it live on air. The peeking business of all these news channels are just crossing the limits or should I say it have crossed it limits already. They make nonsense news on everything. They should be tamed atleast now else the fifth pillar of democracy will be having no value to lose in the future.

P.S: I now agree with my grand father that we should watch only the DD news to avoid banging the head with all these crap.

I went to beauty parlour for the first time in my life when I was in my final year of my college in the year 2004 with a huge support from my grand mother(he he he ). My mother was against me in going to parlour for making up my eye brows and when I came home with my eyeybrows tweezed the sudden reply from my mother was " You are making your face ugly! " .But as today I could notice even a small kid knows much better than what I know and how to carry themselves to a very certain extent. Indeed we all want ourselves to look beautiful. I have seen many envying on the models and heroines who come in the advertisements and films and want to shine like them. The beauty consciousness has increased a lot in our country and starting from the house maids to the IT engineers go to parlours to make themselves look beautiful. That is a welcome trend but again the thought of the people to be too much emerged in this is something that worries me a lot. This trend has there again created a mindset among the young people that only fair girls are respected. The credit goes to variety of advertisements starting from fair and lovely to fair ever. Surprisingly we now have fair creams even to the boys. I agree that we should refine ourselves in everything we do including our appearance but that doesnt mean that beauty lies only in the fair colour or good figure. People who have made a mark in all the arena are beautiful in their hearts. This is another form of colour discrimination that is being followed right from a child is born. When a child is born the first thing the relatives look about is the gender of the child and next the colour of the child if it is a baby girl. And this again creates an impediment in the mind of a girl child when a normal indian wheatish girl is being teased for not fair. An average Indian middle class and poor girls still find it difficult to find grooms due to their colour composure and its high time this attitude should be changed. Girls should not think themeselves to be inferior since selecting our natural colour and composure is not with us. It is something what we are gifted with and we should be proud for what we are rather than mourning for what we are not. Least we are blessed with good physical features and think about the blind, deaf and dumb and people who are physically challenged. I could say that the smile of this lady is 100 million times attractive than the smile of millions of beautiful girls. I could sense a feel of satisfaction and innocence in her eyes and a feeling of motherliness in her. Next time when you are teased about your colour and structure be sure to ask " Yes, So I am and does it in anyway bothers you? ".

(This post is to build confidence to many of our girls like one of my friend who worries a lot about her colour and being teased for it even by her mother )

That was not my fault. People still throw stones at me and scold me for what I didnt do. I was just made a prey to their actions. That was a very bad day in my life and I feel the sense of guilt in me even though I could not do anything to stop it from happening. I still remember that bright sunny day on 16th October 1799. The clock ticked and he was called up by the sepoys to get ready. He looked upon the soldiers with his intriguing eyes and a calm smile broadened in his face. He stood reluctantly and tried to make up things in his mind on what he has to address to his people. He was brought near me and he looked upon me and the rope in which he is going to be hanged. He turned round and his brave voice broke open the helpless-silence of the people. His last words were " Oh, My people look upon. This is not the end; this is just a beginning and the dawn is very near." Even then it took almost 148 years for this wonderful country to cherish the dawn what he is speaking about. And with those brave words he was hanged to death when his grief-strucken people watched him in absolute silence. Tears rolled down from the eyes of the people and the words 'BRAVO KATTABOMMA!!! of a young chap pierced open the silence of the people. I could not still bear the fact that being a tamarind tree I am useful to people in all the ways I can and they found out one more way to use me!!!

The history repeats itself again on 8th April 1857 when Mangal Pandey was hanged at 5.30 P.M. in the presence of all assembled troops in Barrackpore, Calcutta. The only difference is it was a banyan tree.

Gone are the days when the government job was considered to be a criteria for selecting the bridegroom. But it still has its own value apart from the attractive salary, pension and P.F benefits. Today private employee's earn 100% more than the government servant and to many extent he has to strive hard to sustain his job whereas the govenment job for a public servant is more secured when compared to the private employee. I wonder these days after watching so many current scenarios that why the public servants are not ready to do their allocated work and ask people to bribe. We(incuding me) never agitated against this and whatever done by few people like Anna Hazare remains unnoticed. The common man never raise his voice on this issue since he has to face this government servant again and again for his so many needs starting from birth certificate to death certificate. If atleast they do 75 % of their allocated work that will be seriously a dramatic change in the side of administration and lot of changes could be predictable in our society. I know that they are many public servants like my grand father and father who were devoted to their work. That again is a very less quantity and it cannot make any drastic changes and this has to be implemented right from the grass root level. The morality among the mind set of the people has to be triggered right from their childhood and untill then the current scene continues..

Marriage is the word that is driving me crazy these days. Everyone starting from my friends to relatives gives me lecture about the good side of the marriage and I know that is not always a side to be noted. It's sure that it also has other side and I am not concerned about that. I still do not know what I need from life or what I should do in my life. I am lost in lots of confusion and I could not say exactly what I need or what I dnt need. Moreover that person has to bear all my stupidity for his whole life and that is still more difficult I guess . I definitely know the essence of marriage and I never deny that. I know its high time I should start thinking about this but unless and untill I get prepared for it I could not take a steady decision. I could not take any decision in haste and mourn in later part of my life. I used to have battle of words with my cousins who are married and they used to advice me that there is some joy and bliss amidst all the problems . My immediate reply to them is that there is only one way to be happily married & when I find that, I shall get married! :-)

Let me see where this life is going to take me in terms of marriage and till then I will be exploring my part of life in my own way.

In my 25 years of life span I have never struggled for food. I never felt what hunger is. My parents and grand parents took care of me in my early days and I have my own earnings today. Everything comes in time on the table. Breakfast at 9, lunch at 1 and diner at 8. Have read about famine and drought in history and geography which are my favorite subjects in school. Never felt its impact so much unless I saw a man searching something in sewerage and it was a packet of rice which was almost soaked with sewage water. I thought he will wash it somewhere and will have it, but to my surprise he started eating it without cleaning . I read about famine crisis in Somalia and farmers committing suicide in India in news papers. India was affected by strong famine for almost 14 times and the most worst happening was in the year 1943 when almost 3 million people died. To my knowledge this wave was prevalent in Gujarath even in the year 1983. Now we could sort out the reasons for all these famine crisis or the food crisis of many millions in our country and statistics also will help us and I have no doubt we could write for almost 100 pages or even more about it. But what is the next step and what I(we) can do stands foremost rather than digging out the details behind it. Whenever I go for shopping in T.Nagar or anywhere near my locality I never give a penny to the beggars and I used to ask them whether they would like to have something for which many refuse. One incident I remember when I went to shopping with Ramya in Pondy Bazaar where one old woman came near us when we were having ice cream and asked for alms for which we refused and the next moment she asked us to buy and give her an ice cream for which we obliged. That was pretty surprising for us and we were glad to see her licking ice cream like a child. Afer all we earn for our stomach!!!

If anyone asks me what I should not be infected with at any cost, my answer would be COLD. This brutal thing makes me pathetic by causing running nose. How nice if we could have a disposable nose. I could put up a new nose everytime I sneeze. Everytime I get cold, I feel ill and insane. It drives me crazy and takes up my entire energy. The reason for this post is that I am infected again with this so called virus with no invitation from my side. It has infected me this time when I have loads and loads of work and I could not take off from my work. My entire day has turned topsy turvy. Now I agree with my grand pa that changing countries or bed will not cure a cold or a fever and of course a bad manager too!!

When googling I found almost 44 lakhs and odd website relating to commonn cold and running nose, the real impact of globalisation....

http://www.mind-energy.net/archives/90-Get-rid-of-stuffed-or-running-nose-without-drugs.html
http://www.wrongdiagnosis.com/c/cold/intro.htm

DEATH..

This word apart from its meaning is haunting me over a month and I struggle hard to overcome that feeling of fear it generates in me. The list of the older generation in my family , the recent illness of many of them and the death of my cousin's grand father is the reason behind this. After the sudden demise of my father in 2004 it was really hard for me to overcome the sense of insecurity and the loss of moral support from my father in whatever I do. Though I didnt express much I could feel the same in me even now. Whenever I receive any call from my family during my busy hours of the day I would rather take up the call with a sense of fear and start praying that I should not hear any bad news in any way. I sometimes even think why is the nature or the God whom I believe is taking us our near and dear ones and is it not possible to have them with us forever. But then my conscience pricks me that thats the way the evolution goes and I should accept it. All our knowledge have made death miserable than animals that dont know anything. I know that the family may stumble for some days or some months or some years and then things starts moving in its own way. Its true that Life goes on and on ......

If my Doctor says that I am left with 5 minutes to die..I wont brood rather I think I will be typing faster... :-)

I dont know why people smoke??????? What pleasure do they get from it?? Whether they feel blowing out the problems when they are puffing out..?? Whether it gives them a sense of pride that they can do what many people like me (he he..) cannot do?? Drinking(not orange juice or apple juice...I am speaking about the so called whisky,beer etc..) is far better than smoking...The drunkers spoil themselves and the smokers spoil themselves and by puffing out spoil others too...What say??

WHAT IF I WAS BORN BEFORE 1947??????Then with whom would I be joining hands for the struggle of Indian Independence..a. Mahatma Gandhi ( No wonder he is the person first remembered when we think about the struggle for Indian Independence)b. Subash Chandra Bose.c. Veerapandiya kattabomman.d. Bhagat Singh.
Gandhi, bhagat and veerapaandiya katatbomman are my favorites...But Gandhi inspires me in his own ways. Violence is the pathway of the other three freedom fighters to attain independence. But is it possible for me to follow the non-violence, satyagraha, fasting etc......(Doubtful)..But his ways are the most attractive one and If I was there then would have opted Gandhiji..

Stood aghast by reading this...
We least bother about what is happening around us...either in office or in our place...

Am not too sure whether this is true or not..whatever it may be it just has raised a question in my mind how many of us really care about the person working next to us???Atleast how many of us greet our colleagues good morning or goodevening ?? How about a smile towards them??

What made a man's death to be unnoticed for about five days in his workplace????
We forget that small things in life do really matters. Growing up the relationship is really shrinking (almost shrinked) these days. I remember that my grandma used to enquire whats happening in her locality and the howabouts of the neighbours by having occassional visit to their house. She also takes into notice that her visits shouldn't annoy them.

So next time when you go around your locality just smile at your neighbours and ask them how do they do??
Maintain a good relationship with your colleagues. Have a word with them during the lunch break or tea break. ( Dont talk too much so that your presence turns into annoyance for them)

More than everything just give a smile........It really matters!!!!!

WHAT I AM SEARCHING ABOUT????


The destiny has made me to travel to Thiruvannamalai...that was my long term wish and I travelled with my friend..(how come at this age sweety was the question from my friends..he he he)...
Reached around 11.30 and to start with we went to Ramanashram and then was about to go for some hotel to have our lunch. But don't know what made us to see a small gate behind the ashram with a gatekeeper to guard the way that takes up to the Skandashram up in the hill where Ramana maharishi made his presence for about 7 years..(if i am not wrong)...It took almost one and half hour for us to climb and we saw two families climbing very enthusiastically ..We beat them all and reached around 1.45......(We bribed 10 buks to climb up the hill...........Feel like kicking him,but kept myself calm)

Haaaaaaaa...what a sight !!!!....We saw the beautiful and elegant Thiruvannamalai temple with its mighty four gopurams and the widespread city..(not widespread, its is a very small city if compared in terms of area..the entire activities of people flung around the temple i suppose.)..

We sat there for almost half an hour enjoying the silence, the beauty of nature and to be frank my joy knew no bounds that I could not explain it in words what exactly I felt....
On the way i could see many foreigners sitting and meditating and many starring the wide blue sky..What made them to come all along to India specially to Thiruvannamalai..??In search of what...???

Now this question has made me to search in myself...Where i am going???What I am upto??
A BIG QUESTION MARK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!??????????????